Post by ktbare on Sept 22, 2017 15:38:49 GMT
So I started WW for the first time in 2004 when I realized my weight had, at the age of 21, reached 206. I was pretty successful and managed to lose over 50 pounds. After about 8 months I fell off the wagon and started gaining. Since 2005 I've started and stopped 4 or 5 times never staying on track for longer than a month or two, until my weight reached an all time high of 263.4.
In March of 2016 I recommitted, pulled out my old WW materials(not smart points or points plus, the plan from 2004), and stuck with it. I did great and got down to 170 when I hit a plateau. A SERIOUS plateau. It was 6 months of bouncing up and down with the same 5 pounds. After those 6 months of going nowhere even though I wasn't cheating at all, I gradually started to fall of the wagon again. I've put 20 pounds back on and it's rising. I've lost my willpower. I'm so scared of ending up back where I was, terrified really, but I can't stop! I feel like a drug addict whose drugs of choice are bread and cheese and sugar.
Last week I signed up for WW Online and am learning the new plan. It's very different from the plan I was using, which is what I need, but I am failing miserably. The points I was using were based on calories fat and dietary fiber so most of the go to foods and meals I'm used to eating are very high in points on this plan. I've gone over my points every day so far, most nights giving up completely and bingeing at 1 am, not even tracking it.
Ideally I would go back to doing meetings however it's not possible with my work schedule. I've sought you guys out in hopes of gaining some of that inspiration and accountability that I used to get from going. I also found that the "connect" they are using in place of message boards on the actual WW website isn't nearly as helpful or informative. I miss the old format on the website! Also, I work from home running a 24/7 in home childcare so I have no social life whatsoever. I have no adult friends anymore.
If you've read this far, thanks for paying attention to my rambling! I can't wait to get to know people here.
In March of 2016 I recommitted, pulled out my old WW materials(not smart points or points plus, the plan from 2004), and stuck with it. I did great and got down to 170 when I hit a plateau. A SERIOUS plateau. It was 6 months of bouncing up and down with the same 5 pounds. After those 6 months of going nowhere even though I wasn't cheating at all, I gradually started to fall of the wagon again. I've put 20 pounds back on and it's rising. I've lost my willpower. I'm so scared of ending up back where I was, terrified really, but I can't stop! I feel like a drug addict whose drugs of choice are bread and cheese and sugar.
Last week I signed up for WW Online and am learning the new plan. It's very different from the plan I was using, which is what I need, but I am failing miserably. The points I was using were based on calories fat and dietary fiber so most of the go to foods and meals I'm used to eating are very high in points on this plan. I've gone over my points every day so far, most nights giving up completely and bingeing at 1 am, not even tracking it.
Ideally I would go back to doing meetings however it's not possible with my work schedule. I've sought you guys out in hopes of gaining some of that inspiration and accountability that I used to get from going. I also found that the "connect" they are using in place of message boards on the actual WW website isn't nearly as helpful or informative. I miss the old format on the website! Also, I work from home running a 24/7 in home childcare so I have no social life whatsoever. I have no adult friends anymore.
If you've read this far, thanks for paying attention to my rambling! I can't wait to get to know people here.
